So I have not managed to post in over 2 months, there are some reasons for this, and been dead isn’t one off them.
I have been working on a number of side projects and small development tasks, I am building a new product.
I have been trying to build my theme for this blog.
But the biggest reason, is as you may know I work for the UK Game developer “Creative Assembly“, and if you follow the game industry at all, we are currently building the biggest game of 2016 “Total War : WARHAMMER” (Yeah go pre-order it now) out the 24th May 2016. I have therefore been supporting the business in developing the game, developing new features and building the online presence.
I am hoping to get back in to the swing of weekly blog posts in the next couple of weeks, I also want to redesign and re-launch my blog with my awesome custom theme.
Special Thank You to Adriana who acted as editor on this post.
I, like most of my generation, and every generation after me, am pretty tied to my Mobile Device (I am an Apple iPhone guy). I found that every time my phone buzzed, I would immediately pick up my phone, with excitement in my heart only to find that it was junk mail. The situation only got worse when I bought myself an Apple Watch (Can you tell I am an Apple fanboy yet?). Now, instead of checking my phone immediately, I’ll check my wrist. The watch has the added issue that people think you are inpatient or have to be somewhere else. I found that this constant notification checking was getting in the way of me living or interacting with the real world.
So I have a black and white personality, sometimes refered to as an all or nothing personality, I ether succeed or I fail. The issue with this type of personality is live doesn’t work like that there a very few things in the natural world that are binary. It also causes my definition of success to be very narrow increasing the likelihood of failure. While trying to remain humble to a degree, I have an above average intelligence, this causes my expirences of failure to be reduced, the reason that I mention this is that I believe that it’s this lack of expirences handling failure that over the years have caused an all or nothing way of thinking and for me to form a fear of failure. This has had a negative effect on my life, causing a loss of a sense of accomplishment and contributing in part to my depression. This year however I decided to try and change this, and the solution happened kind of by accident.